The Nurse Mom

I woke up this morning excited for the day. My 2 yr old had preschool orientation, my 4 week old had his best night of sleep yet and it would be my first day of doing some work from home to help out my team before returning to work. This afternoon I don’t feel excited at all I’m anxious and scared. Preschool orientation went great for the oldest and the little one has had a good day as well, but opening that computer and working was so overwhelming. I’ve contemplated every day for weeks how I was going to leave them both and return to work, today has confirmed that fear. I worked for about 3 hours throughout the day and hated every minute of it. I want to hold my baby and play race cars with my toddler I want to pick up and clean my house and do my laundry. For now I have the option to close my computer and pick up my baby or play or clean but in 2 weeks I want have that option my babies will be at home while I work. We’re blessed that my mom keeps them part of the week and my husband ...

I guess as the saying goes never say never, because never would I thought that I would be starting a blog. Do I have a clue what I am doing or where I plan to take this? Nope! But here goes nothing. A small introduction is needed I suppose. Young mom of 2 boys still currently on maternity leave with my youngest guess this gives me something to do while I bare the decision of going back to work in a few weeks. I am a nurse currently working in a PCP (primary care) office do I love my job absolutely am I thrilled at leaving my boys to go back there absolutely not. Going back to work after my first son wasn’t as hard as I had thought it would be but the thought now of leaving them both to return to the workforce is terrifying. I wish that we were blessed enough for me to be able to stay home with them but unfortunately not at this time. Don’t get me wrong I love being a nurse it’s all I know how to be besides a wife and mother but the joy and satisfaction of watching the small strides tha...